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TroubledTwistedParadise
Ugh.
I give the fuck up on trying to be happy.
I will just eat myself into a fat food coma…
…not really but, I feel like I just did that ha.
Damn you Cookout.
Everything is so complicated in my life right now, I just with things could be simple. Just once.
haha, this has been my attitude lately! lol
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Source: lessonsinromance
I know she is my bestestfriend but….
When you are married with a kid, don’t be posting a million pics of yourself online just begging guys to comment on them….
….For someone who is not sluty AT ALL…..she puts off the wrong message. Badly.
…
I think the little devil on my shoulder just hopped into my ear….
He is here to stay for a bit I do believe.
Hang on…
I MUST get and stay healthy.
It’s the only way I am truly happy…
I could scream….
I don’t want a relationship. I’m so fucking sorry.
6 different guys…..all bugging the shit out of me. All well, most have good intentions but….I just don’t feel anything for anyone. I want to. I thought I would actually want to be with this one guy but, I have no feelings whatsoever :( I thought I did and, I really wanted to but….after hanging out with him and Daniel and Jerrica It was pretty clear to me that it’s just not the right fit =/ not now anyway.
I also think its pretty shity of him to run his mouth AT ALL considering I was always 100% honest with him and could EASILY just use him. I mean, I was going to go to a concert of my FAVORITE band for the past 10 years but, just completely threw that away because it’s not fair to him. He don’t need to spend anymore money on me. I wasn’t sure until the very last night I was with him what I wanted. I thought I wanted to be with him but, he kissed me and I felt nothing =/ It just felt wrong. I hate that but, I can’t help it. I think it’s just not the right time for me to try and date someone. I just want to cry because, I do really like him but….not more than a friend right now. I have wayyyyy too much on my mind to be with someone. It’s not fair to him.
I keep having people think Im the “bad guy” but….Im not going to use someone or, lead someone on. Why the fuck does that make me a bad person?
Im just so irritated. I wish I could go back to the days where no one wanted me. I never thought I would say that but, its true. Im not worth it and I keep hurting people who don’t deserve it. I don’t see what they see in me anyway…..I’m just a waste of their time.
